Chasing my dreams is hard… and it will be for you, too.
Pursuing your dreams can be hard. So exhaustingly, soul-crushingly hard. But what’s the point of life if there is no Impossible Dream to strive for? If we can’t imagine a better world than this, if there are no ways to improve, no goals left worth pursuing, that’s Hell, the place where all hope and progress has been damned. Chasing my dreams can feel miserable at times, but I won’t stop. Kind of an intense way to start my first post in far too long, but it’s the truth.
This last couple of months have been pretty rough. A combination of sickness, website issues, getting stuck yet again, kid-induced sleep deprivation and the substitute teaching I’m doing to help make ends meet have conspired to kill my momentum on FrostFire rather thoroughly. Not merely conspire, they actually did the deed, first murdering, then shredding, and then incinerating my writing momentum. But from those ashes I’m rising once again. In spite of all my slowness, weakness, and distraction, at least I keep trying. I’m still chasing my dreams.
A little inspiration
I like the song “Hall of Fame,” by The Script. I’ve started listening to it each day as I get ready to write. Yes, I’d love to get rich and famous, but that’s not why I connect to this song. I’d generally recommend not watching music videos but in this case, it’s worth making an exception.
You might notice that the two protagonists we watch aren’t rich, famous, or ever likely to become so. That’s not their dream. They just want to be a boxer and a ballerina, able to enjoy doing what they love. They’re just two kids trying their hardest to achieve their dreams in spite of all the obstacles in their path and no matter how much work it takes.
That’s me, an ordinary kid working my guts out chasing my dreams. I love stories. I love creating creatures, magics, plots, worlds, all of it. Doing that as a 9 to 5 job would be a dream come true.
This blog is weird
I honestly don’t know who this blog is for. In theory, it should be for fans who like my stories. It often seems to be for my fellow aspiring writers. But honestly? I think this blog is for me. It’s a way of holding myself accountable in striving for my goals. This is how I can record and share insights I’ve gained along this path. This is a way of shouting into the void that I’m still here. I’m still chasing my dreams. I haven’t given up.
Closing thoughts
Life is hard, and struggling to reach your goals is even harder, but it’s worth it. You’ll find people out there who will help you on your path if you’ll only ask. I’ve been blessed to find teachers and mentors and comrades in arms. People who can at least suggest which paths to stagger down while I’m chasing my dreams. I’m going to have to write one heck of an acknowledgments section for each of my books.
Anyway, thanks for reading! Keep pursuing your goals, and just keep writing!
Timothy Kuhn